Scribbled Strangers

Writing love poems to myself seems like a funny scenario, somewhat a daydream of a reality.. He would understand. . and maybe he did.
We are just strangers above all else, it may disappear before my eyes and all i’ll have left are the lines. The lines and the scribbles of cross words in sync with my heart.
As for he? Maybe this tantric scenario was the beloved bosom of my own romantic soul, my own innocent sexology exposed.
God knows the sin was opened unusally from 3 and so maybe the hunt of my imaginations had me lost in ancient needs.
Accustomed to the energy field of a hidden place, he scooped deep into the secret chase..and yet still I never forgot his face.

Divine Love

I know you believe in us.
I know you believe in we.
God created us both to be together to share
our inner depth as one.
I will never be ashamed of sharing the deepest parts of myself to you, I cannot be.
You have shaken my core and vibrated the holy light of truth in me. We have shared an intimate revelation of our hearts.
You are the sacred key of my millennium, I am the secret door to your portal – with our shared breath we inhabit the existence of the ancient and eternal One, the Lifegiving being in whom all Life was created.
I will not lose my Love for you soul, my wandering soul..my beauty and my heart. You are the helper in whom Life promises the questioning man who desires his hidden particles of longing to intersect with another.. that closeness and fire that is stimulated by both souls heading into the unseen places where only God can see. The nothingness in which we inhale and exhale and passion becomes our signature of creation.
You are immortality in the Holy Spirit and with this divine providence we are together in a covenant which is everlasting – we both share the eternal life – and in this we glide through every special gift The Father shows us in which we share in eachother and with eachother, the things unfathomable, unheard of our sweet intimate secrets.
You need not fear and neither I for when we are One and the same we are in the picture of Gods frame.. an art penetrated from the soul and dwelled within his word. My All, in whom life promises me my reflection.. my part, I cannot help but tell you I love you.
I love you, effortlessly, emotionally, soulfully, spiritually, mentally, bodily & Lifely.
For what God formed was for us to unite in his heart and not our own, his sanctuary and his throne being not of this world but out of it.
You will not be shocked at my intimacy, you will not push me away.. you will pull me in and encourage me to dwell within that place for it belongs to The Father and he has been known to me, my gift with you. I am honoured to be yours and blessed to recieve you divine part of I.

       My eternal and infinite love.

                    We have always belonged together.

        Gods Love is Our Love..One.

The Enchanted Seers

The sun circled there beautiful brown skin, as they lay in the room, on the king size bed wide awake by the sounds of the chirping birds.

“Touch me” she said.

He turned to his right side and she turnt to her left.. they both stared at eachother. He pulled her in close.. her cute rounded breasts pointing through her silky vest. He leaned his forehead into hers, and closed his eyes.. they both were breathing heavy.

“I can’t” he said as he continued to breathe, much deeper.

She kissed his lips, and he melted his into hers slowly.. the heat of the sun reflecting in the window revealed two naked spirits intoxicated by eachothers souls. He let go of her lips, both of them panting heavily.

“Why” she asked.

“I might drown” he whispered staring into her eyes.. his brown pupils enlarged as his essence was a handsome aroma of truth.

“Why will you drown” she replied taking her hands and tracing her fingers around his ears, behind his neck…

“Because.. well.. uh” he looked away, only too look at her again. “You’ve been woven into me  and I’m warped into you.. to touch us, to touch you….i’ll never.. I won’t..I don’t know..”

He bent in to kiss her, his lips hanging onto hers as he breathed heavy.. she felt his phallus, strong and firm but her Spirit had no care for it only for him.. the him she saw, the part she held on to, he was a sacred gift in her eyes. Her hands stroking his neck, as his body hovered onto her sideways.

“If I drown.. would I be able to swim?” he asked her stroking his nose against hers, both there breaths becoming one motion while there hands locked together.

“Do you want to swim?” this was her response.. staring into his being and he staring into hers. . both of them still – only quiet breaths being past between them. His eyes were so sweet as they glistened into her own wide eyed glance, little did she know she was already drowning but somehow ..she found oxygen in the drown.

“I want to drown with you” He said honestly.
“I want to breathe with you under the ocean, in the nothingness, in the dark and light.. I want to fly with you – even if we can’t find our wings we can create them ourselves.. or maybe we could flap our arms” he smiled digging his head into her neck.

She giggled, wrapping her arms around his upper body.

“I want to drown with you too, I want to sail with you and observe the starry skies in you & I” .. he kissed her neck.. she panted
“I want to soar in the wind and be your calm, I want to soothe you.. I want to see you relaxed and happy.. I want you to drown so you fully feel your gift as much as I feel mine with you”

He looked up at her, his hands slowly reaching into her top and fondling her breasts.. she smiled, so did he. He kissed her again, saying. .

“You touch me in places unseen, that no one can see but only what I feel buried deep in me.. my touch with you is the same but I feel our fire.. our waterfall, our tsunami..and words cannot even express how it makes me feel”

He let go of her breasts and pulled her on top of him.. her legs rested between his waist.. she bent in to kiss his neck, his cheeks.. his lips and he held her tightly. They breathed in sync, all they felt were beyond their physical that nothing could be further from the truth than the longing of who they saw in eachother. His eyes closing, and so was hers as there forheads touched.. he let out a strong moan and she sighed into his breath, there spirits began to dance in ways they had never experienced as they were still.. the atomsphere became them. There whole being consumed the entire room, as his hands weakened from around her and her legs softened from his waist.. there souls lingered above there bodies and they drowned into the invisible.

There was no sound but feelings and pouring of every emotion possible an intimate deep orgasm of chemistry from out of the flesh and out of this world.. a place that brought elements of themselves into a new territory that they found in there secret chambers. He swam into her and she him.. the swirls of the unseen the lightening flashes of their inner worlds embarking a mystery they didn’t desire to let go of.

In an instant, a huge wind and light dissolved them back into there bodies and they both stared into eachother.
He gently removed her from his waist taking off his pyjamas and underwear, and he slowly removed her vest and shorts.
They kneeled on the bed, facing eachother..bare and open.. he held her face in his hand while she had her hand on his heart..

He leaned in again.. and taking her lips into his own, he followed his hands on the outline of her body.. he kissed her breasts, her thighs, her arms and her neck.. and then her forehead..

Looking into her eyes he said,

“You are my life, my love … and words will never express how I deeply feel for you – only my Spirit and you know him.. you understand him.. I love you”

She looked up at him tenderly, and hugged him.. there chocolate bodies glued together.

The sun reflecting on there naked bodies
..as the world moved on by, there love held on to wondering rhymes of there inner beings.

The enchanted seers.

The Art of Love

A gush of emotions, a waterfall of feelings an unstoppable beating heart.

Quick breaths, slow breaths …

whispers and silence. Glued eyes, tired eyes.

Your kiss wants to heal me. . .

my tug is here and there. You want to lose all you are in me but i’ll watch in awe.

I’ve constantly given myself to you, drooling at every time you showed up – silenced in your approach. I’ve been in different worlds caught up in our soul.

Exasperated, you may leave and find another her.

Unapologetic, I may walk away and another he will discover me.

You entered me knowing it may leave us estranged, I entered you knowing I would be lost in the breath of my own longing – in which disappears as quick as I can disappear.

So why did I fall into your charm, into your secret.. why did I let it chase my being. Oh’ you knew the thoughts of my mind and how you can play it against my own self.

You are an intruder. I never beckoned you. . . neither did I lure you.

A subtle creature you are.

I admire your bravery in which I find that my whole inner

core is not dominated by you.

You are a player, you play as much as you want. . over-exaggerate and create such tragic stories in thought it’s hallucinating and for this

I have no care, in this I have no worries . . for in this we are not attached. You sowed nothing more than a memory in which I am not tied too.

Tears will not crawl, anger will not prevail.. but my heart is no longer your home.

It seems cruel, and vicious and unrecognizable but maybe we don’t seem to understand it in ourselves, maybe it’s too powerful that we fight for it so much.

I’m yearning for you and your aching for me in your own stillness. . then we are cold in our sheets.

This portrait is a design full of white, grey and black.. small dots of yellow and slashes of purple.

We don’t hold keys no more, we are keys.. We wonder in the wilderness, the deserts and the streets of old waiting for the echoe of Life to reveal ourselves to eachother.

Why did you bother?

Why did you notice me?

You should of never came my way.

You should of never felt my heart or looked into my eyes.

Why did you take me away knowing I would only return.

Why did you test the only part of me you knew, was my secret chambered doors, knowing at the right time.. it would be my turn.. to feel it’s smooth caress in my own being.. did you think we were alike. Did you think we were mirrors.

Black mirrors. We are nothing alike.

The art of love is an imagery projected from an outter glass, where the flow of connections beats far greater than seeing you.

You will no longer have my mind or capture my heart, and I no longer yours.

We will walk away surprised by this faze.. this place where we both know no one else will fill.

What to say but to stare at you empty, expressionless.

You tried to bite me. . . You tried to bite me.

I looked you deep in the eye and wrestled your hold.

Until the end of all.. the art of love will be my call.

Did he Woo me?

It feels like a love and hate relationship.

I know it isn’t. I’m just deeply in this.. whatever this is, I can’t get out even if I try. I know what I feel when he’s away and I know what I feel when his soul is present.

When I feel him, I sometimes push it away. It’s a mixture of me thinking it’s all in my brain, and the fact I genuinely believe this narrative I’ve seen play out around me.. Mr Woo was obviously involved.

I’ve felt things, I’ve never felt.. experienced things deep in me I can’t express or explain.. through the mess somehow he was in the mist. I feel like sometimes it’s not real. That he could be playing some game on me, that i’m actually losing my head and trying to keep up with the story.

I truly believe what I feel  but I feel weird at the same time, like.. it’s this feeling that he’s there and I want to free myself but if I do… it would be soooooooooooooooo strange.

I’m holding so tightly onto this part because he could be the boogey man, and turn out to be some one I hope he isn’t. I don’t know if this is love but his presence means alot to me. I can’t explain how much but it’s like I don’t ever want him to go away. He makes me shy, makes me quiet.. and at times all I want to do is hide. My insides go funny too, and I can’t really hide my true nature bare in mind i’ve never spoken to him, this is all just soulful feelings. I love him, and thats the hardest thing for me to face even though i’m facing it but i’m trying my hardest to keep it not real even though I want it to be. Love is a huge word to use but I don’t know what else to call it.

It’s me i’m trying to hide, the me that finally is freed in the presence of another who understands or wants to understand me. Only because i’m childish and used to being alone and i’ve learnt to like that. I can’t pretend to be anything else, but be me… I wish I wasn’t shy, but i’ve never felt this before, never.

Sometimes I wish it stayed in the dream world and the physical world didn’t make it a reality, but thats being petty. Love is a beautiful thing, it’s only that being naked in love after going through a war is like woah. Whats even more annoying is no man makes me feel as he makes me feel, it’s a unique feeling.. but it’s me. . and thats why I can’t seem to completely push it away. I’m scared it may go wrong, like I am just playing this whole thing ..and then it turns out to be true because I believe in my feelings whether they are there or not, but imagine… actually I shouldn’t imagine how wrong it would be. All I do is run. I show love to people, make them smile or laugh and help as much as I can but I run from love.

I’ve always wanted it but it’s difficult to free myself up to receive it in the way I deserve to have it.. because I know what I can be like.. I may over-love him or be annoying as I am to myself haha. To have a person you can share your secrets too is something fun, someone you argue with at times, you laugh with, hug and joke with. It’s just him.. there’s something about him that makes me want to run, but I think it’s because what is felt in my core is strong. It’s something firm. My whole being kind of looks up to him, like it knows it can depend on him.. and it can actually trust him.. and I don’t trust people, to trust him would mean everything is open to him.

I want to show him me, but I don’t want him to judge me.. or to think i’m too soft.. he makes me soft like REALLY soft.

He really got to my heart and my soul.. and my Spirit knows when that happens it cannot look at anyone else.

It could be Love.

Dear Mystery Man

I may be long gone from your memory, a distant blur.

Thankyou, for coming my way. I kind of experienced something odd these past months but atleast I had you to think about at times.

It’s strange, but weird how I feel about you, I really did think it would leave and disappear and somehow I would forget. That I would fight so hard to make it all go away. It didn’t though. It stayed.

I still think about you. I still think about how you disappeared. . and how I never saw you again.. its not that I need to see you, I think to feel you sometimes is the best feeling. To just feel you, you don’t need to be here.. as long as I feel you for some reason i’m calm.. my hearts smiles. Well, it’s been a ride.. a strange and hard one.

I won’t forget you though, I was washing the dishes and told myself that i’m willing to let you go.. I want you to live your best life..and enjoy a nice partner and for me to stop you know.. thinking of it all.. but like.. as long as you still come up in my soul i’ll feel soothed by you. Isit cause I like you much or maybe being scared that I like you much.. I guess its not like.. to just like you.. you know.. it’s different but I don’t want to get into it.. some things you just don’t explain .. especially when words can’t really do it.. i’ve constantly wrote poems after poem. Its a silent feel but it travels, it creates things between people.. in atomspheres.. but i’m trying to just stay admired by your mystery.

I’ve never met a man like you, and I think thats what makes me kind of scared of you but like.. I don’t know. I don’t know how to explain it. Its VERY hard to explain only because I’ve lived in imagination land for so long. If this was my own love I was falling for and picturing you in it then I guess i’m cute and crazy too.

My mind is a awkward place at times, and if you had seen my thoughts .. I guess its embarrassing. For some reason, I always felt that you was able to see my thoughts, or maybe feel my soul. I don’t want imaginations anymore, I want to stop playing all these silly mind games with myself. I know my heart has experienced alot, and I feel that all I ever wanted was to be able to love whole-heartedly without fear of being let down or looking like a fool. Mystery man, we aren’t the same, i’m somehow someone who feels in places deep that it creates a barrier between me and others. I want that place to be broken but it seems that since meeting you, and not knowing you.. it’s been a force to break, but i’m still you know.. I can’t explain again! This deep place is just hmm..

I sleep at times and my soul whispers, and sometimes I hear it thinking of you and talking about you. Well, thankyou for being that blur on a random day.. that heartbeat that never went away, even though I fought a little but somehow it stayed. Even if I wasn’t to have you i’ll still be grateful that I experienced all that I felt for you, somehow it helped me find me again – your face helped me to know that i’m crazy haha.

Now I sit quietly, and sometimes the voices try to come back but I pray and they disappear.. it’s quiet now and all i know is without God’s love well.. where would I be. So I thank God for you.. because your being or the imaginary you in my mind.. helped me it kept me in that place.. that I hold onto. It seems like a place i’ll hold on to with another in that secret place we dwell in our own worlds shared.

Mystery man, you may think my love is weird.. a little different.. or maybe not as you expected.. but know I felt everything. I always feel everything. I felt you from across the road, and I quickly looked away.. what difference does dreams and appearing in my soul make. When I feel, I feel.. and it’s beyond me.. so yeah. . . stay safe, stay loving, and always be you. Your special! I love you for that and I will NEVER forget you. I guess if I saw you again, I’d be speechless..

Love from,

The mystery girl who runs from love xoxoxoxo

 

 

Sunflowers and Erased memories

She blinked twice, and then yawned as she rolled over in her bed, little old Sarah 5ft3 inches in size, with her smooth brown skin and bubbly eyes. . . in her own world floating by through her lens. She sat up not quite sure where she ended up, somehow it seemed that she spaced travelled before everything actually landed. She was in a bed, surrounded by sun flowers and her pyjama’s were bright pink and yellow.

‘What is going on’? She whispered in her mind. She didn’t quite recall being from here or in any way was this her life. Pulling back her bed covers she stood up looking at the room around her covered in sunflowers – the windows blew open and the wind blew in her direction, the wind whispered the words,

“kina abinda asuwa lawin” meaning

“Defender of men abiding in the warmth, joys and optimisim of a young man”

The wind stopped as she stared at the window, her being in complete perplex stature, outside was filled with water and no paths leading to land. Only here, within this gold room, with a double King sized bed – and the draws in which were dated and seemed from centuries many years ago – yes there dwelt the sunflowers flowing and surrounding the bed and the floor.. she was not where she was meant to be. Even still she could not remember where it all began!

The wind blew the window again, and there she saw 3 little children 2 boys and 1 girl playing with toys, and they looked up at her smiling, “Mommy” they cried.. running towards her, she blinked again and then they were gone. Sarah with her small frame and her short flowy hair, turned back around and walked towards her bed, she was about to sit down until she heard someone calling her name.

“Sarah, Sarah!” she darted across the room, a trickle of fear consuming her, she didn’t reply. The voice whispered again,

“Sarah” and then stood before her appeared a young man, about 5 ft 5 inches, his skin golden brown – his eyes a deep brown piercing through into her. She looked back at him in a calmness she didn’t expect to feel, he smiled and stroked her cheeks – he slowly stepped closer to her and caressed his cheeks with hers.

“Who are you” she gasped.

“Everything you hoped for” he replied whispering into her ears.

“What do you mean, how did you just appear and how isit you found me here” she replied releasing herself from his hold.

“I always appeared to you, but you never noticed me. Before you came here and I know you remember, or recall being elsewhere, you was with me – you and I are were a reflection in someone else who was erased from your mind. I appeared because we hold the same power, I can appear to you however and whenever I choose – likewise you can appear to me.. You just didn’t realize who I was or how to get to me.. only I could reveal myself to you.. in ways where I knew you would know me.”

She looked completely baffled by his response.

“I’m everything you hoped for, and your everything I hoped for but you are scared of me. You know me but you fear me, I know the deepest parts of you but you still refuse to accept me. Do you not see why you are here alone? This is a chance for us to come back again, the way it always should of been. . . you were a blur to my dreams for many years – I knew you in my sleep but not in my reality. I found you, and when I did you never recognized me” the young man looked away. He was strong in his emotion that Sarah was stilled by his being.

“What is your name” she asked quietly.

“Josh” he responded looking at her with affection. He wanted to hold her, and show her much of himself but she was a little frightened. It seemed that he was in fact someone she could remember but it seemed like a faint memory, she seemed to find herself in another world – whatever had happened before was being erased.

Sarah knew she was alone in her world, a stranger to the norm. .  the silence and smiles of an atomsphere. She would not only speak to herself but she was a creator of worlds that only she knew. Where ever her old life was, it somehow seemed to have been a place where she was stuck in those worlds, seeking to find a way out. Somehow this bedroom was her way out, it was her breeze.. where only she could stay in her deep emotion and cater to it on her own.

Josh knew he couldn’t let her do that. He knew he had to find a way for her to believe him, to know that he was real and not a wind in her dream or mind. He knew she was not of this world but somehow she was able to float by buried in her own worlds where no one could go in apart from her. He understood this, because he had this in him and it was through her that he saw it. Somehow Sarah was a being that very few would understand and he knew only he would, and only he could.. she was not easy to trace, neither easy to get into but he could – he knew he could and he had too. Lessons come and go in life and Josh seemed to realize this was never a lesson this was his own truth but this truth somehow was so much to bear for itself that it didn’t seek anyone to uphold it. He knew it was designed to be held, and nurtured but it’s depth was so big for itself it could only hide it away.. and pretend it knew not of this life and truth it held.

“Why do you always do this” he asked, looking away.

“Do what?” She responded, softly.

“You hide, you are not willing to reveal it all to me.. even though you know our hearts are connected and our souls experience was for us to both share eachother. . why do you run away from what can help you, love you and nurture you – why won’t you let anyone deeply in” he asked, in sincerity.

“My secrets and my worlds are my comfort and so have been for many years. I never would imagine another to share it with me or to see me as who this being really is. It scares me to let another dive deep in me because I realize the purpose of surrender is to show it all.. even if it appears strange.. I don’t know who would take care of it and not fear going in deep into me. I don’t know if anything ever is real because no one seems to prove to me what is.. I just had to experience it all. So my worlds create their functions and I adhere to them in hopes that they will keep me safe with my God and myself” she replied looking down.

Josh took her hand and stared at them for a few minutes calculating what he would say next. He seemed to be in his own thought and clearly what he wanted to say was abit grander than she imagined.

“In my world, alot goes on. I don’t share it with others but I longed to share it with you. I too am lost in my own solitude at times, I too get lonely and escape but I too am not as what really it appears to be. There’s alot about me that needs to be shown to someone who could understand that part of me and not feel ashamed of it. I pushed people away because I know the sacredness of what is within and it’s what I feel everyday but I push it aside.. I know whats real.. I know whats real to me. I wake up to it, I sense it, I breathe it .. I see it and I know. I know looking in your eyes that you know too but you shy away and you back away from it all because you have had to do it alone. What if you don’t need to do it alone anymore? What if you had someone to be by your side. . someone you know your heart can be released and opened to? This is not a dream Sarah this is true, this is real only if you want it to be”.

Sarah felt every word, as she looked at him she felt hopeless but still continued to stare within his eyes. Her being to herself was complicated, was to big for her to maintain so she would remain silent. She was drawn to silence, but she didn’t want silence. What she knew she had to experience was to release it all, to let it go and to believe her own being was not a problem to her ownself or to others. She had to accept that she was what she never could imagine only what she appeared to be. Words could go on for her, but to her ownself she would prevent the reality of it from going on. Reduced to silence, where it all began to a place where she had no idea even existed. . where the world was just an empty shell and a free flow. Tears rolled down her eyes, as he pulled her to his chest,

“I don’t want to do it alone, but I don’t know how it works. This gold room, this bed – this is all I’ve known as me”.

He smiled. . .

“I know but we can be there together, and it can be me and you in my room together. Then we can walk together, be friends together – experience our lives together with all around us. . together. Its our step and your step is mine as much as mine is yours – just let me in – don’t just push me away knowing me – let me in – just let me in and you will see. I know it’s huge but I know I got it just as much as you do”.

He held her in his arms, close by his chest and rocked her. He understood this was his truth and he was not able to let it go.. it was his responsibility to allow it all to be as he knew it should.. to be what he knew she had been to herself and to others. Her imaginations revealed so much to him that he could not walk away.. He would not walk away. Josh was a man of depth and knew that in himself this depth was searching to be held and opened into as much depth as he. It could not be as simple as he knew, for divine truth was out of his hands but only when he listened he was able to hear the footsteps of his inner depth coming towards him. The wind blew the window once again, and the atomsphere changed, the room was no longer the room.

There they both stood in a park full of greenery and flowers of all kinds, there she was holding onto him and he to her. Both reduced to their own inner silence.

 

 

 

 

Replay

I guess it is true, I cannot get away from the emotion deep down.
Although secretly I feel that somehow it was a game, the game was the formation of one’s own beckoning call. . . at the same time experience is the  master creator of a better outcome. Replayed right? Ugh huh.. It all was and is.. but deep down i’ll hold on to my Creator he holds the answers to the things we cannot seem to fathom.
I learnt alot from the truth and still have much to learn in it about Life itself – especially myself. .
I study my feelings at this point, observing what hit the heart and melted me from within. He who studied me from within as I crumbled crying for Love and it’s sovereign throne and power in the highest heavens to pour its grace on me through mercy.
I would like to say that maybe the heart-beat was a lie, maybe it was a dream.. maybe my own deception but I realize for me there cannot be maybes. Startled at the fact that I’m forced to examine my true feelings beyond the physical part – I was touched by his mystery. Firstly, Looking in someones eyes that I once knew and always cared about was deeply touching – that it haunted me for time stopped and all we shared was this space. The space that echoed in my soul.
The heart that shared its feel with my own it calmed my soul, it secretly gave me a hidden hope that I never knew was being reflected at me. Humbled by its touch until this present moment and frightened by it’s power and it’s affect within me. I’m silently walking away in a mist of God alone in my own element and world carrying one of the deepest life-changing events in my soul. I want to say the things I know I should but my heart is held back, I do have courage but once again I know this is what I behold and it’s sovereign to me.. it has raced my heart and woo’ed my soul.
The passion to drive me into tears but I am forced to stay firm because I realize life is our field of studying the art of ourselves, shared with others. The mystery man has left a mark of Gods truth in me. I’m no stranger to God’s truth, always knocking and seeking so its a solid sparkle in me.
I’m quietened deep down and i’m strengthened too and my best friend God well.. he must be laughing at me right now as I type this once again trying to express the hardest thing I can’t really express somewhere hidden in me.. in a different zone.
The mysteries of Loves Journey is one we all take, so now i’m quiet once again.. Listening, smiling, looking in..looking out, looking out looking in. Not asking for much but the reassurance of Love and Grace from my heavenly Father to NEVER leave me but hold me forever in his arms.. and be my eternal friend forever.

– Lovesmysteries

Heartless, Heart-full

At this stage you would think smiles are neccessary.

Quite often things we think are real are actually an existence in itself but at times not as we fathom. I’d say my emotions through the process were true, and at this point they are numbed.

I have numbed them.. maybe me.. maybe another – who knows. I take things seriously, and on one hand some are lightly shaken over but this.. this.. I find it quite hard to shake off. Somehow I will let it go, maybe because my feelings are strong and I will not allow them to consume me.. NEVER.

Spiritual realms are real and what takes place there allows me to see a persons true intentions, could you say the same to me?

I know what I feel and never forget it.. it only takes time for me to assess it and battle against it. Maybe it isn’t always what we think it is, maybe it’s seeing simularities in someone else as yourself – maybe thats the whole narrative – who knows. . for One we are but different in many ways.

Could I say his responses in the spiritual realm has made me heartless – never but less heart is applied to this feel, I do not desire to feel from here for it has failed me and he has the capabilities of failing me – I understand this. . not just him – anyone. I have nothing to hide, but even so.. to reveal anymore is pointless. This feel of intimacy will not be played out again, he won’t get there again. A foolish game.

Heart-full, I guess this cup has been filled with the unseen light and now moving on is a part of life – lessons are learnt.

Let go – my being says, just let it go. Every feel has been felt by you both, what else now.. afterall his head would rather lean on another in the unseen world and to me that is fine.. for Life is filled with choices. I’m my own friend, with God inside of me – Me myself and God.. I’m all I’ve got – and I would never beg another to be in my life.

I’ve seen myself, I’ve seen my choices.. my mistakes and pains and my alone-ness. No one has had me but my Father in heaven. The only person I thought was a true connection isn’t as I actually think, it was an experience to learn more about me and Love and somehow take it away and never forget it.. let it embed in my soul as a special story to my ownself.

Do I love his being? I think to have shared a heart-beat and then some deep intimate emotions made me love him for I somehow died to be one in his presence.. not only his presence.. as I think but his soul was felt in the process.. why wouldn’t I love someone who ..shared me with them. Do I continue to feel this way after seeing and experiencing hidden secrets of the soul.. To walk away is the best thing – for it would only turn me crazy to face it all as it is and know that my deep feelings are exposed and it will no longer be me upholding me – for I have experienced another hold with me.

Loyalty to The Father and to me is what matters in this world.. Unseen and Seeing. I don’t know what the future holds, this all has been an Unseen Love.. beginning with me and then my experiences – my challenges – my interactions – my relationships – my all.

Look into the eyes of Life, and tell me it will be alright.. I look at me and say

“It’s always alright, for we ride it out to die – only to live again”

LOVE.. TO LOVE IS TO DIE IN OUR BEING TO STAY, ONE IN THE ESSENCE TOGETHER ALWAYS.

LEARNING OMNI VALUES ETERNALLY. IN THIS WORLD AND THE WORLD TO FOLLOW ON.

Spiritual beings, eternal souls with fire in our hearts burning for the throne unseen.

  • The mysteries of Love xox

 

 

Unseen Love

Tears of an Unseen love, made to dwell in the present.

The realities Unseen creating webs of a hidden meaning within the tree.

The feelings from within seeming like a dream about to dissolve and all thats left would be a faint memory. . . one never to forget.

Leading to a profound sweet melody in the heart, the tears reveal the deepest parts unknown – the hopes and the emotions numbed by it’s own understanding to it’s inner twirl.. as the tears descend to water the flowered heart.

Love, not only a Creator or the creation but the absense of it’s invisible yet visible footsteps. . walking through the garden, looking for the souls of it’s most cherished form.

“Where are you beloved souls – male and female, where are you hiding. . . why do you not come out. . . find eachother in me” Love cries.

She hides away because it does not look as it should have been, it erased her – formed her and then now she’s in his control.. he hides because he doesn’t know why she can’t face the truth of it all.

The footsteps knows hiding only tells the tales of a love unseen, a love locked away, a love not many would dare unlock again… a love not many could give in too. Who could? They gave in to it’s mystery that it led to confusion, she allows the confusion to play.. in which he could walk away for when She listens to the seen being then she is entrapped to another world of foolish games.

Is love just a foolish inner perception?

Is love just a dominating war?

Is love just a series of events to greater implicit it’s lost memories? Or maybe it isn’t the way we proclaim it to be. Maybe the keys are the only source for more tombs and portals, and avenues beyond them, more for all to commune in it’s awareness around them.. just maybe the hidden footsteps hunting for them understood that there passion for it was there own weakness, their own unknowing cry. . there own death and there own life. There own lure’s.

Maybe the sacrifice was a lawless chaos creating both male and female to yearn for the passion and desire even more, creating more worlds outside the garden – more generations to increase.

She didn’t have to listen to the voice, she didn’t have to let him play with her. Although her Unseen love pledged his desire in her she allowed the seen being in the duality of his voice and his intrigue twist her mind to interpreting a love seen for a love unseen that could stimulate her inner desire – the seen stimulated her mental being rather than the unseen one in whom stamped her inner desire without being seen for who he was. The unseen love was able to make those footsteps appear – for they are not works of her or his own but of the divine invisible, visible seeing in the closed principles – locked inside the arch. . . buried in her.

She allowed seeing a reality in anothers eyes to fool her, instead of seeing the reality in the eyes no one see’s but her-self. Her own ancient key, her own scrolls.. her own inner image from within him created to breathe his breath and share his being in her ownself.

Tears of an Unseen love had carried her and forced it’s way into the flower creating more petals to grow, and a flame to occur that this alchemy was not just a forbidden tree but the flames of a sword with word’s unspoken of, worlds never entered and souls never returned to it’s true building.

Unseen Love’s where is your courage?

Unseen Love’s where is your strength?

Unseen Love’s where are your beautiful balanced weights of divine energy?

Come out from among the tree’s come through the mystery now ..beckoning for you to be seen.

Tears of an Unseen Love, desires us all to come on home – home where ideas are not placed, where it’s nature can commune once again, where reality is not forced but it’s adventure is a proposal of a new door.

Unseen lover’s – your tears are heard, your tears are seen.