What am I meant to feel?
How am I meant to continue.
Did I wake up from a dream. . .was this a game on me?
What am I meant to feel, or am I not meant to feel?
Should I just stare, stay quiet and look away as always..
Somehow it was all triggered, somehow it was all a blur.. I was alive, I saw everything.
This was no fantasy, it was real. I didn’t imagine it. My Spirit..
Yes, my Spirit felt it all and my soul – it was moved..swayed in slow motion yet still capturing the fast movements of my mind.. I was there, like i’ve always been.
My heart’s energy was bleeding and my mind out of control.
Did I drive me there?
All I know is that the love of my life, Christ held me.
Though my heart bled excessively, though I hallucinated and functioned in the blur . . .yet still I saw, experienced and felt. . physically and spiritually.
Holy Spirit never left me, he kept me.. Holy Spirit please don’t ever leave me. . . please xxx